Tarot: The High Priestess II

It has been a long time since I have had time to write one of these, so I hope to write a few and schedule them.

This is the third card in the major arcana, the High Priestess, a Egyptian Ua Zit (similar to the Wadjet).
She was a winged Cobra goddess said to be a protector of the Pharaohs.

Meaning: She is the guardian of inner knowledge and secrets. She often symbolizes that you need to listen to your inner self. She can also be your connection to divine energy and your destiny heeding you to listen to them.  She represents the link to the subconscious mind, which cannot be accessed through the physical world but only through dreams and symbols. Pay attention to your dreams and let that inner knowledge guide you.

Reversed: When she is reversed she is telling you that you are not listening to your inner self of inner calling or even not trusting your instincts. She warns that you need to take some time to reflect and even meditate to find what you should be doing. Or, she wants you to gain a deeper understanding to what knowledge you do have to fully understand it


This card has never appeared in any of my readings but I do think there is plenty to learn from her.

Invocation to Odin

Disclaimer: So before I get to the invocation, I should say that I combed the web as I prepared to write these so if a line or two remind you of someone else's, I probably read it as inspiration. This (and my others) are rough drafts. This one is not overly personal (written specifically for me to use) but others are. Feel free to use them, but if you post them on the web, please link back to me.

Hail All-Father,

Wise Warrior,

One-Eyed Wanderer,

Come share my food and fire.

Tell me your stories of wisdom,

the secrets your missing eye sees.

Let me feel the love of both book and blade,

 experience fury and joy, 

and heed the tales of my elders.

You who chooses half of the slain, 

look upon my deeds

and when my time comes

Let my end be worthy of song.

Let me understand sacrifice,

remember well, 

and journey far,

Odin 

Witness This!

A Wonderful Weekend

So I got to spend this weekend with my partner and go to the Renaissance Festival. I had to drive over 4 hours to be with her (and then 4 hours back home), but it was well worth it.

I met her at her work and got to meet some of her wonderful coworkers. I picked out a sage and cedar spray to cleanse my room and a necklace with a piece of aqua quartz. We had lunch together and then I hung around the store till closing and we had dinner after.
It is strange to have others recognize that we are twin flames and to know they wish they had what we have. We are lucky to be harmonizing and not in some of the other stages of twin flames. When my partner and I are together our energy vibrates and we become more sensitive to other energies, more powerful in our spellwork and divination, and truly happier. (The vibrations was an amazing experience and I crave to feel it again.)
Every time we are together we seem to have people come into our lives that need guidance in their romantic relationships. We try our best to help others but it is intimidating to give advice to those older than us and who have been in relationships longer than ours, but our true love makes them want the same. I could write a post on just my tips for relationships, so if you want to read one, send me a message.

At the Renaissance Festival we had a great time and even had tea at the only little sit-down restaurant in the place. It was incredible. We also picked out what sort of ring we want to get my partner for when we get married officially and legally. Originally we wanted a green stone, but when we saw the blue topaz it was perfect, now only to save up....

I will leave you with the promo for the cd we bought while there from a lovely band that performs there. I have been listening to the cd a lot since coming back home since I miss my partner.

Diet update and A Fun Weekend

First things first, no, still no job. Yeah it sucks and I am trying my best but to be able to move I will have to make at least $13/hr and that isn't easy to get.

Anyways, on to better news, I have lost over 10 lbs in the past month on the diet. This is without major exercise and such. I feel better but I am still about 30 lbs from my goal.

And the best news, this weekend I will be visiting my partner and going to the Renaissance Festival (provided it isn't rained out). We are going to get some time together after almost a year apart (I won't want to leave). I really hope I can get a job and be able to move into a safe place with her (we could afford cheaper places more easily but they are NOT safe). Bella can't come along, as the long car drives stress her out and I would rather wait till it is a permanent move before I do a 4 hour drive with a car screaming the whole way (she only is quiet outside of her carrier but that isn't safe for her). I hope to update after and to have a job soon? At least an interview? Please?

House Hunting and Job Hunting

So as almost a year has passed since graduation, I am beginning to get anxious about getting a job, almost anything that pays above min wage. I want desperately to be back with my partner and to have a place of our own, but we would need at least $1500 a month for just housing costs for a safe place. That is a lot when you can only find jobs for like $10/hr. This wouldn't include food, other bills, etc. So my stress levels are hitting a peak as I struggle to get out from under my parents. Please, someone should hire me... I am a hard worker (part of the reason I am not as active on here as I wish to be) and I am a quick learner so I can make up for my lack of experience (I only have some retail experience but I do have a Bachelor's, so that should count for something, right?). I really hope to find something in the Atlanta area, particularly in the Sandy Springs area. I don't know if I could do food service, I just don't think I could stand the pay system. But something dependable and something I could move up in? That would be amazing!

Missing my Partner's Birthday

So I know it can seem silly to be more upset to miss your significant other's birthday than, say, Valentine's Day. For me, however, missing my SO's birthday is worse. I couldn't be there to make the day special in little ways because I know my SO doesn't like their birthday and has negative memories tied to it, but I try my best to cheer them up and make it a special day. Being several hours away and unable to go visit, I couldn't do this for them. I barely even got to talk to them and all I could do was send a card because I have no income to buy them a gift.

I love my partner so much and I feel terrible not getting to show them. We have been long distance for 10 months and it is killing me a little bit every day we are apart and even more so when it is a day that should have been special.

So, I haven't been posting much

Well to start off, I am still trying desperately to get a job away from where I am currently to move out (my luck sucks though). I have not even gotten a single interview...

My mom has me on a diet to help support her on it (it is really just eating healthy which my mom sucks at) and it is alright but I hate egg whites... My mom keeps making "omelets" (with no cheese because dairy isn't allowed) so I am getting really sick of it. I am glad to have mostly fresh food (except for fish since we don't live near the ocean so ours is frozen) and getting plenty of veggies and fruits. But cutting out wheat is the hardest, other than cheese that I love, because where I live has little in selection for alternative. We have used brown rice noodles and they taste fine to me, but I miss bread, pancakes, and even like muffins. I know there is rice flour or flax flour but my mom refuses to try anything "outside her comfort zone".

I think that is my biggest problem with my mom in relation to this diet. She will not try anything healthier for her. She won't eat kale, quinoa, dark leaf lettuces, or any other food she has never used before. I would rather do this on my own to try different foods, not eat basically the same few meals over and over.

On another note, I have been working on a rpg campaign idea about a futuristic magical apocalypse. Despite never being a DM, I am using my time here (where D&D is considered taboo or even satanic) to plan out my world and plot. I have a sketch of a map and some history but I struggle with plots for players because I don't want to bore them or use the same rehashed plots.

So that is a little bit of why I have been busy and not posting, but I hope to fix that soon, since this is really good for me even if no one reads my more personal posts.